Sinthiya Uttara Dhaka
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so, I'm 16 years old, and ive always been the one in my friends who has said i wanted to wait to lose my virginity. And ive gone to parties and stuff for about a year, and still saved it. Most of my friends arent virgins either, and always have said how much they respect that i havent gone out and got drunk and lost it to some random.
So two weekends ago I went out to a friends birthday drinks and saw this guy there. He was the first guy I ever kissed and I've kind of always had a bit of a crush on him. problem is hes a absolute dick, but i figured whats the harm in talking to him. So we were talking and then music turned on so we started dancing together and then he kissed me.. i kissed him back. we kept dancing and i was having fun. We went for a walk around the garden and found a bench, we were talking about how we hadn't talked in a while and about when he had first kissed me. it was kind of romantic so we started making out. then. he started to slide his hands up my skirt. I didnt actually even notice at first. Then i realised and made him stop. he kind of made a joke about it so i laughed and kissed him goodbye and went home.
I didn't lose my virginity.
Untill. Last weekend I was going out with some different friends and we were having loads of fun and playing drinking games because it was mine and another friends birthdays a few days before. We got her dad to pick us up and take us to another friends as she was having her birthday party aswell. We didnt think there would be tht many people there. I especially didnt think 'he' would be there. He was. i saw him and we talked. we danced. and drank more and more. (well i did, not knowing at the time he was perfectly sober). we walked behind the house and were making out. it started to rain so i ran back inside, he came with me. We were talking to two of our friends (there a couple) and he whispered to the guy 'save me' and the guy grabbed me and was like ''how are you!!?' i had heard what he said and ran outside. the strange thing was, he followed. I said, 'im saving you what are you doing?' he said 'i was just joking' i dont know what to think about still. so i just said k, he told me he had to go and i should go with him, i said ; i cant, im staying with a friend' i saw another friend and started talking to him, when i turned around 'he' had gone...
I kept dancing, and then we went back to my friends. she was with a guy and i didn’t really feel welcome at his house. 'he' had txtd me and said hed come get me if i was 'dtf' all i txtd back was, well you shouldnt have gone.. he rang me. i told him to come back. he did.
We were in his car, and he put his hand on my knee saying should we go in tha back? i barely remember what i said, bt i did. all i remember was us making out. and him keep asking if we should 'do it' i kept saying i cant but obviously gave in. he pulled my underwear off, and went inside me. it hurt at first. alot. i didnt say anything. then it was over.
He took me home. I cried. Alot. I cried for hours.
I regret the entire night so much. Only a few of my friends know it even happened. Ive cried alot since it happened three nights ago. And i hurts to even talk about what happened. And I havent really talked to him since. Im scared. I feel dirty. I feel stupid. And I wish i could take it all back. I can't.
01677038638,01670875844, 01675821127
so, I'm 16 years old, and ive always been the one in my friends who has said i wanted to wait to lose my virginity. And ive gone to parties and stuff for about a year, and still saved it. Most of my friends arent virgins either, and always have said how much they respect that i havent gone out and got drunk and lost it to some random.
So two weekends ago I went out to a friends birthday drinks and saw this guy there. He was the first guy I ever kissed and I've kind of always had a bit of a crush on him. problem is hes a absolute dick, but i figured whats the harm in talking to him. So we were talking and then music turned on so we started dancing together and then he kissed me.. i kissed him back. we kept dancing and i was having fun. We went for a walk around the garden and found a bench, we were talking about how we hadn't talked in a while and about when he had first kissed me. it was kind of romantic so we started making out. then. he started to slide his hands up my skirt. I didnt actually even notice at first. Then i realised and made him stop. he kind of made a joke about it so i laughed and kissed him goodbye and went home.
I didn't lose my virginity.
Untill. Last weekend I was going out with some different friends and we were having loads of fun and playing drinking games because it was mine and another friends birthdays a few days before. We got her dad to pick us up and take us to another friends as she was having her birthday party aswell. We didnt think there would be tht many people there. I especially didnt think 'he' would be there. He was. i saw him and we talked. we danced. and drank more and more. (well i did, not knowing at the time he was perfectly sober). we walked behind the house and were making out. it started to rain so i ran back inside, he came with me. We were talking to two of our friends (there a couple) and he whispered to the guy 'save me' and the guy grabbed me and was like ''how are you!!?' i had heard what he said and ran outside. the strange thing was, he followed. I said, 'im saving you what are you doing?' he said 'i was just joking' i dont know what to think about still. so i just said k, he told me he had to go and i should go with him, i said ; i cant, im staying with a friend' i saw another friend and started talking to him, when i turned around 'he' had gone...
I kept dancing, and then we went back to my friends. she was with a guy and i didn’t really feel welcome at his house. 'he' had txtd me and said hed come get me if i was 'dtf' all i txtd back was, well you shouldnt have gone.. he rang me. i told him to come back. he did.
We were in his car, and he put his hand on my knee saying should we go in tha back? i barely remember what i said, bt i did. all i remember was us making out. and him keep asking if we should 'do it' i kept saying i cant but obviously gave in. he pulled my underwear off, and went inside me. it hurt at first. alot. i didnt say anything. then it was over.
He took me home. I cried. Alot. I cried for hours.
I regret the entire night so much. Only a few of my friends know it even happened. Ive cried alot since it happened three nights ago. And i hurts to even talk about what happened. And I havent really talked to him since. Im scared. I feel dirty. I feel stupid. And I wish i could take it all back. I can't.
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